Not my Problem

Having undiagnosed pain and symptoms is among one of the most frustrating things. Every doctor uses the same few phrase, “your complicated, your different, not my problem, I don’t know what to tell you.”  If I hear one more doctor tell me this is not their problem I will either cry or scream. No one can provide me any direction or any medical advice.

I have had abdominal issues for as long as I can remember. I’m not convinced all my abdomen flares are related. The only thing I do know is each time another flare begins it is worse then the last. The pain becomes more intense and unbearable and new symptoms emerge. In addition to the unbearable pain, this flare, comes with a side of fevers, vomiting, sever abdominal swelling, back pain, and trouble lifting my right leg. This flare is worst then every flare before. It dictates my life. I cannot function. I can barely keep my head above water with my school work. I cannot put into words how frustrated I feel.

My mother and I have searched endlessly high and low for answers. I have endured hours of testing. I have e-mailed and spoken to every doctor of mine. Yet no one can provide direction. I do not know where to go from here. I don’t know how to move forward. I don’t know who to reach out to. All I know is someone needs to provide some direction and someone needs to help me.

If you are walking the daunting road of undiagnosed symptoms, you are not alone. What you are enduring is too much emotionally and physically. You are much stronger than you know. You will overcome this. There will be a doctor who will listen, who will understand your symptoms, and will provide a treatment plan. This is only a road block, this is not your destiny, this is not the end. There is a light of hope at the end of this dark place. Keep searching, keep fighting, keep hoping, and keep pushing forward. Give it everything you’ve got. It will be okay. I hope you are having a lovely afternoon filled with blessings and that you can rest comfortably.  Sending spoons, hugs, and prayers.


Author: Victoria

Welcome, it is an honor you dropped by. I am Victoria. A twenty-something-year-old battling multiple chronic illnesses while learning how to thrive. Chronically Hopeful was designed to educate others and to provide support to those who are chronically ill. Proving encouragement to others is essential to me. I share my health on here. My major illnesses are Lupus, Hyperadrenergic Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome, EDS, Mast Cell, Endo, and Ulcerative Colitis. I want to share my story with you hoping you will experience support; that someone else understands your pain, struggles, and frustrations. God has chosen not to heal me but to hold me. The more intense the pain the closer his embrace”. My faith, as a Christian has sustained me through the stormy waters of the past few chapters of my life. I desire to grow closer to God and lead others closer to Him. I help lead two online women’s Bible studies. I also post devotionals. I am pursuing my bachelor’s degree through Liberty University’s online program. Despite my illnesses, I have thrived in school. I am a member of Phi Theta Kappa Honor Society, Psi Chi the International Honor Society, and Tau Sigma Honor Society. Abby is my service dog in training. I also have three cats Gracey, Fluffy, and Sadie Rose. I am looking forward to hearing your precious story. Sending hugs, prayers, and spoons. Have an amazing day!

2 thoughts on “Not my Problem”

  1. Victoria – I came across your blog from Kelly at Purple Project, and I just wanted to say so much of your story sounds like mine. I just wanted to tell you you’re not alone. Thanks for writing with such openness and honesty.

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