Thoughts of A Spoonie

My life is so different from those typical my age. I cherish all I am blessed with. However, there are times it is difficult watching people when I am out or on social media. Girls laughing at the mall without a care in the world. Not needing to think about passing out or taking medication. People going forward with life. Getting engaged. Getting married. Expecting children. In a way, I feel left out.

I came home from college and began a hard fight. Everyone else enjoyed friends and learning. I fought my body. Fought the pain. Fought just to stay alive. I have learned valuable lessons. I have begun serving in ministry. I wouldn’t trade these priceless blessing for anything. Yet some days I crave a normal life.

It is okay to be in between loving your life and grieving what never happened. It is to me a normal element of the spoonie young adult world. The emotions are hard to process at times, but my friend, you are doing an amazing job! Allow yourself to feel.

Move forward one moment at a time. Celebrate the small victories. Embrace each moment of joy. Thanks for stopping by.


Author: Victoria

Welcome, it is an honor you dropped by. I am Victoria. A twenty-something-year-old battling multiple chronic illnesses while learning how to thrive. Chronically Hopeful was designed to educate others and to provide support to those who are chronically ill. Proving encouragement to others is essential to me. I share my health on here. My major illnesses are Lupus, Hyperadrenergic Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome, EDS, Mast Cell, Endo, and Ulcerative Colitis. I want to share my story with you hoping you will experience support; that someone else understands your pain, struggles, and frustrations. God has chosen not to heal me but to hold me. The more intense the pain the closer his embrace”. My faith, as a Christian has sustained me through the stormy waters of the past few chapters of my life. I desire to grow closer to God and lead others closer to Him. I help lead two online women’s Bible studies. I also post devotionals. I am pursuing my bachelor’s degree through Liberty University’s online program. Despite my illnesses, I have thrived in school. I am a member of Phi Theta Kappa Honor Society, Psi Chi the International Honor Society, and Tau Sigma Honor Society. Abby is my service dog in training. I also have three cats Gracey, Fluffy, and Sadie Rose. I am looking forward to hearing your precious story. Sending hugs, prayers, and spoons. Have an amazing day!

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