Introduction to Psalm 5

It is simply an honor that you have dropped by! My prayer is that you will be a little encouraged or learn something here. This is a simple introduction to Psalm chapter five. Furthermore, look out for the next Psalm five post coming soon!

“The various psalms reflect nearly every human emotion: unbridled joy, deep-seated jealousy, seething anger, hope, and depression. These are only a few of the emotions behind the poetry we hear expressed in individual psalms. Feelings and emotions are central to what it means to be human. We cannot escape them nor should we. Psalms invite us to take the emotions we feel and bring them before God. This book model how to come before God in times of sadness, brokenness, and joy. Psalm 5 is a cry for help and a plea for guidance by a person who suffered at the hands of an enemy. It talks about the morning as the time to pray and listen for God to answer. Like many laments, it begins with a cry but ends in confidence.” Biblegateway.com

Psalm Chapter five is an emotionally rich chapter, yet consists of only a few verses. Another sorrowful Psalm crafted by David as he fled from Saul. His mature faith shines throughout the chapter as he not only pours out his heart to God but also praises Him. This Psalm is parallel to 1 Samuel 18-20, which I highly encourage you to read as well to gain a deeper understanding.

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 Clearly, this is a prayer, furthermore a brief overview of how our prayer life should look. Prayer is a complexly beautiful gift extended to us. “Words are not the essence but the garments of prayer.” In addition, prayer is longings beyond words, worship, and listening with a still heart to God’s voice. “Moses at the Red Sea cried to God, though he said nothing. Yet the use of language may prevent distraction of mind, may assist the powers of the soul, and may excite devotion.”

“Utterance is of no avail without heart, but that fervent longing and silent desires are accepted, even when unexpressed.” Humans make prayer into something formal with rules that Christ never intended. Perfection is not an element of prayer, yet it is accomplished in the Fathers eyes when we are seiner. I love how Rachel Wajo puts it, “you have permission to ache freely.” Christ desires for us to pour out our hearts. For us to share with Him every detail of every element of our lives and to share every emotion. He desires your heart even though it is not in perfect condition, even if you feel it is shattered and stained by sin.

It can be tempting to pretend that we have it all together and are just a step away from perfection. Aiming for the perfect body, perfect career, perfect family, and perfect relationship with Christ. Society has us in the mind frame that we can achieve perfection. The media whispers that everyone but you has it all together. We don’t want to be a burden to those around us so in a way we isolate ourselves in pretending it is all fine.

Lord,

We proclaim how great you are and tell of the wonderful things you have done. You are our strong defender. Our source of life. You have blessed us beyond understanding. All honor, glory, and praise be to Your name now and forever.

We praise You for the holy gift of Your word. Enable us to cherish it and engrave it on our hearts. Let us see clearly so that we may take in the amazing things coming from Your Word. Open the eyes of our hearts. We are eagure to receive Your Word. Bless us with understanding. Help us to apply Your Word to our life today.

Amen

 

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Emotional Health: IBD

Personally, I don’t like the words mental health. I feel like it has a negative perspective in society and is associated with more or less being crazy. I prefer the term emotional health, yes I am aware there isn’t much difference but that’s what I call it. Anyways. This post isn’t about which term is better. Today should have been yesterday’s post but the day slipped away from me. We are talking about emotions and IBD. There are dozens of aspects of emotions with chronic illness in general. I am going to just survey this topic in this post and attempt to keep it short.

Everyone is unique in their illness and emotional health. When a person gets emotional sometimes, the medical field blames everything on the emotions not acknowledging it’s a balance. From a clinical point of view, personally, I have low scale anxiety. I had clinical depression as an adolescent, but do not right now. That does not mean I don’t feel depressed at times. It means it isn’t a chronic aspect of my battle that impacts daily life. Most medical professionals cannot understand why I am not mentally unstable, but I say go with it.

Medications impact emotional health as well. Last year, I went through a season where I had no emotions. At least that’s what it felt like. I had went into survival mode than high doses of Prednisone and my emotions went on vacation.  In addition, medication can change how you look which in turn impacts your emotional state.

Even though I am not diagnosed with severe emotional disorders, it doesn’t make the emotions easier to cope with. There are countless emotions that come with medications. Tons of stress and frustration from doctors. The isolation of illness. Not to mention the anxiety that is through the roof. Anxiety with where are the bathrooms. Will I have an accident? Will I be alone forever? How am I going to work? Will it ever get better?Logically I can answer these questions but during an anxiety attack logic only gets you so far.

Learning how to cope is a journey with emotional and physical health. Talk with someone you trust or write. Releasing the emotions is helpful. Being creative is good for emotional health. Many people draw, color, or listen to music. I am a fan of online support groups as well as raising awareness for my illnesses. The Crohn’s and Colitis Foundation also has helpful resources for mental health. In addition, you can check out this Patients Discuss Impact of IBD on Mental Health video. Lastly, a big key to my stability is my faith. It does not necessarily cure an emotional disorder but it makes it more manageable.

 

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Benlysta

If you are a Lupie, there is a good chance that you have heard of Benlysta. For those of you who have not heard of Benlysta, I will give you a brief overview. Benlysta has been the only medication specifically developed for Lupus. It took underwent years of clinical trials and endless hours of research. It is intended to be used along with other Lupus medications. Benlysta is a biologic which is given in an Intravenous infusion once a month. There are still some trials being run on it. If you are interested in learning about how Benlysta beneficial in the treatment of Lupus I strongly encourage you to check out there webpage: http://www.benlysta.com/. Personally I have found the videos on the webpage educational as well as the information kit I received in the mail.

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It is essential for me to educate myself about medications prior to beginning them. I began researching about Benlysta a year before I began my first infusion. I read as much as I could about it, watched various videos, and spoke to others on Benlysta. I discussed the things I learned with my parents. I had my heart set on trying Benlysta. When my doctor mentioned beginning me on the medication, I began the paper work without hesitation. Once I got insurance approval I enthusiastically began my loading dose infusions. I got Benlysta every two weeks for three loading doses then went down to once a month.

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Many people recommend eating protein the night before and the morning of the infusion. I get sick if I eat large amounts of protein, therefore I eat about half the amount of protein that other people consume. It is vital to remain hydrated before, during, and after the infusion.

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Before I get my Benlysta I usually get blood work done. Then I get IV fluids and premedicated. Premedication varies from person to person. I take two Tylenol orally and get Benadryl and Zofran in my IV. The infusion it’s self is uneventful though personally I endure a lot of pain during it. (Most people do not experience this much pain. My body likes to be different)

Benlysta takes time to work. Waiting is difficult when you have endure so much pain for a long period of time. Everyone notices improvements at different times. However it is said that one does not get the full benefits until a year after beginning the treatment. I have been on Benlysta for six months now. I am going to briefly share my experience, however I urge you to keep in mind that my health is not stabilized and there are several factors as to why I have not had more benefits from this treatment. I noticed a difference from the start in pain levels. However it was short lived. I only received relief for 5-8 days.Within a few infusions my hair loss drastically got less. After my infusions I was extremely itchy until my last one. The itchiness did get better with time. I have my infusion around the time I eat lunch but I cannot eat during my infusion. Sometime my appetite decreases a bit before my infusion. I usually have trouble sleeping the night after my infusion. Everyday before my infusion becomes more difficult and more painful. My body seems to crave the treatment so much. It feels like it completely abandon my system too quick.

Though I was hoping for a drastic improvement, I am grateful everyday that I receive Benlysta. I hope as time goes on I will improve greatly.

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Please share your experiences with Benlysta in the comments. Feel free to ask questions as well.