What To Do When You Can’t Find Thankful…

Gratitude is not always second nature. There are days when it seems all hope is lost. One of those everything that could go wrong did go wrong type of a day and rock bottom turned out to be a few feet lower than you thought.

Finding God’s grace in struggles can be a challenge but it is possible. There are times you feel like you cannot find thankfulness. Regardless how devastating the struggle or if you are just drawing a blank there is always something to be thankful for.

There are many places you can look to count things to be thankful for. Go to your facebook news feed and rejoice with those who are rejoicing. Did someones daughter take their first step? Did someones son graduate high school? Thank God for the family and the blessing. Still in need of more ideas? Head to the Bible. Thank God for the miracles, the stories told, the lessons learned, who He is, and His promises.

Worship music is a nice way to shift our perspective from us, our thoughts, sorrows, ect to  a Godly and heavenly perspective. Additionally, sometimes in the search for gratitude one simply needs to remember to take care of themselves, eating right and sleeping. Listening to others encounters with Christ and stories of His goodness encourages gratitude within. Sometimes we need to take time out to tend to our weary souls.

What do you do when it feels nearly impossible to find something to be thankful for?


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“Know this: my God will also fill every need you have according to His glorious riches in Jesus the Anointed, our Liberating King.” Philippians 4:19

Jehovah Jireh (God My Provider),

From the moment, I open my eyes at the break of day till the time the sunsets You provide. Daily, You provide me with food, clean water, shelter, clean air, and clothing. You surround me with lovely people whom I cherish. People who challenge me to grow closer to You, people who make me think, and people who support me. A wonderful church family. You have given me purpose each day air kisses my lungs.

Daily, You provide me with just enough to thrive. Enough strength, determination, compassion, love, and grace. You have provided the beauty of nature.

You have provided me with a thriving relationship with You. Blessed me with the Scriptures and the gift of prayer. You have blessed me way beyond my comprehension. You have blessed me in ways that I am unaware of. You have blessed me so greatly, yet so often I do not acknowledge the depth of all my blessings. You are my great provider. I will forever praise Your Holy name.



Happy Birthday

I have written creatively for as long as I could hold a pencil. These are two fairly old poems written in honor of my mom for her birthday, today. I could not have asked for or dreamed of a better mother. God has truly blessed me. She has been with me for every appointment, ER trip, urgent care trip, every test, and every surgery. Sh She is a huge encouragement and the source of strength. I am blessed that she introduced me to the Lord and raise me in a church. Thank you will never be enough. Happy Birthday, Mom!


Fancy dresses princess messes

Twirling on toes

Bubbles to blow

Picking flowers as laughter showered


All part of the little girl I once was

Butterfly kisses before

Bedtime prayers

Daddy’s little girl

Mama’s little helper



Curious mind

Carefree girl in a perfect world


Even though times seems to fly

The years go by and by

Simply in a blink of an eye

Memories engraved are meant to last

Of the little girl, I once was

Spreading my wings I fly

Far way and so many things

But I’ll never forget the little girl I once was



Dainty soft pink slippers twirling high on toes few doors remained closed life an open book

Tapping rhythm to a new song always found a safe place to belong never even had to look

Feels like just yesterday somehow it just faded away

Now I lay counting laughter and teardrops



The whole world lay in my back yard the only attack needing to be dodged was by dragons

Only things exist are what we created, only innocents of the wild imagination

Exploring wonderland unplanned adventure in all kinds of weather

Feels like just yesterday somehow it just faded away

Now I lay counting laughter and teardrops



The world seemed against me could not yank free from the chains, oh the lies being fed to me

Unknown sadness filled my eyes had no reason but no choice I had to cry

Feels like just yesterday somehow it just faded away

Now I lay counting laughter and teardrops


Finally, I belong; these memories blanket my soul uncovering things that were buried in that hole

Overwhelmed with agape to the point of speechlessness anointed with blessing

Feels like just yesterday somehow it just faded away

Now I lay counting laughter and teardrops


Oceans away miles apart I long for the peace covered in that place the ground covered in grace

It is how I escape all the troubles of the world love falling like rain soaking everyone in its embrace

Feels like just yesterday somehow it just faded away

Now I lay counting laughter and teardrops


Only pictures remind of the past, memories fade with rain cause we know they never truly last

Pain consumes every inch of my being prying me away from the life that once was

Learning to dance in the storm though I pray for life to return to the norm

Feels like just yesterday somehow it just faded away

Now I lay counting laughter and teardrops



“You love your parents, but as you get to know them you fall in love with them.” I believe this quote is absolutely true. As a child, our parents are heroes. As teenagers, we drift away from our parents. We are so consumed with our lives, we don’t take enough time to get to know our parents and cherish the small amount of time God lends them to us. I cherish the time I have with my parents.

Dear Caregiver,

You have an important role in the invisible fight. You acquired a unique view of invisible illness. You provide support, assist with daily living tasks, and push us to be the best person we can be. You push us to keep fighting providing hope when we want to give up. You have accompanied us to countless doctors appointments, medical testing, and procedures. When we couldn’t find the words, you were our voice. A priceless advocate. You have seen us at our worst and our best. You help sort though medications and bills. You listen to our frustrations, fears, and ambitions.  You laugh at our medical jokes. You encourage us to embrace this new season of life and the person that we are becoming.


Honestly, you could never be paid enough for your efforts. Thank you does seem to express enough gratitude. We notice all the little things. We appreciate all your effort, all that you have done, your support, and we appreciate you. You are a warrior; a hero. You demonstrate unthinkable strength. You are an inspiration. Thank you for all you do!



Libster Award

I am so honored, overjoyed, and shocked to find out that Be Thankful daily nominated me for the Libster Award. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for nominating me. It brightened my day. Thank you so much and thank you to everyone who has seen my blog or has followed me. Please check out Be Thankful Daily, http://thankyoudaily.com/

Here are the rules according to Lauren and her source, Wording Well.

  1. Post the award on your blog.  (Check.)
  2. Thank the blogger who presented this award and link back to their blog. (Check.)
  3. Nominate 11 bloggers who you feel deserve this award and who have less than 200 followers. 
  4. Answer 10 questions posted by the presenter and ask your nominees 10 questions. 

(Cue the trumpets and drumroll.) My nominees are….

  1. Retha from Chronically Twenty Something https://chronically20something.wordpress.com/
  2. Savanna from One Mountain at a Time http://savannahhardcastle.wordpress.com/
  3. Nicole from I am Chronically Well http://iamchronicallywell.com/
  4. My beautiful friend Katie who runs the fabulous blog: Faithfully Living https://checkoutofreality.wordpress.com/
  5. Chronically POTSitive https://chronicallypotsitive.wordpress.com/
  6. Surrender Shelbey http://surrendershelbey.wordpress.com/
  7. Chronic Illness Cat https://chronicillnesscat.wordpress.com/
  8. Life of a Lupie http://lifeofalupie.wordpress.com/
  9. Be In The Know http://beintheknowke.com/

Sadly these are all the blogs I can nominate now, sorry it’s not 11.

And here are the questions for my nominees:

  1. What is the significance of your blog name?

Just like our illnesses are chronic so is our hope. I think it’s a wonderful reminder to hold onto hope even when it seems like everything is falling apart.

  1. Chocolate, vanilla, or strawberry?


  1. What time of day is your favorite time to write?

Afternoon or evening.

  1. What is your favorite album and why?  (Yes, I still call them albums.)

I don’t have one currently.

  1. What are you most thankful for and why?

There are so many things I’m thankful for. The support I receive from those who love me, my cats, this blog, my face book page, my doctors, my illness, and so much more. Be sure to check out my Thanksgiving Day post Thursday!

  1. If you could have dinner with three people, living or dead, who would you choose and why?

I would pick three of my close friends from my Teens with Lupus online support group. It would be amazing to connect in person and to spend time together being normal girls.

  1. Where do you see yourself in five years?

Where ever God calls me. I’m honestly not sure where that will be. I can barely plan five days into my future right now.

  1. Mickey Mouse or Bugs Bunny?

Mickey Mouse

  1. What is your day job?

I am a full time college student and a full time chronically ill patient.

  1. Why did you start blogging?

To raise awareness for chronic illnesses. To educate people. To encourage and support others who are chronically ill. It is something that has been on my heart to do for over a year.

Congratulations to the nominees!